I haven't updated in like three months and I am so sorry... ):

i made a wish on a million of the stars,
registered your name on a few.
that way, if you ever forget who you are,
you can look up and see a picture of you.

you're built from distraction
so brilliantly dull

and we can laugh all we want,
know it's your favorite.
and i'll stare at you all i can,
cause you...you're my favorite.

and when you find everthing you looked for,
i hope your life leads you back to my door,
ohh but if it don't,
stay beautiful.

i remember the first time we danced
i remember tunneling through the snow like ants
what i don't recall is why i said
i simply can't sleep in this tiny bed with you, anymore

"This is love, isn't it? When you notice someone's absence and hate that absence more than anything? More, even, than you love his presence?"

i hope you remember me when you’re homesick and need a change. i miss your purple hair, i miss the way you taste. i know you’ll come back someday, on a bed of nails i wait. i’m praying that you don’t burn out or fade away.

Do you remember our first subway ride?
Our last swim on the east coast?
I remember your warm smile in the sun,
The daydreaming boy without a shirt on.

Empty hallways, you can't get to me. Open doorways, but you're still searching for your keys. And I can't open the ears for which I sing. So I'll just pass along, and baby, you'll start to hear me.

You insist on explaining the obvious when it's pointless. And I'm heartless for saying what's really on our minds. Your words go to rhythm, while mine go to rhyme. You were never good with syllables and half heartfelt lines.

This is when you start to shake. This is when you start to stutter. This is when you say I love you. This is when you swear it was only for each other.

all the stars up in the sky, and the leaves in the trees, all the broken bits that make you jump up, and grassy bits in between, all the matter in the world is how much i like you

I cannot refuse your eyes
Please don't look at me tonight
My heart beats fast, I know you're there
I pretend like I don't care

Cause if you jump I will jump too. We will fall together from the building's ledge, never looking back at what we've done. We'll say it was love cause I would die for you.

We're friends, real friends.
And that means no matter how long it takes, when you finally do decide to look back,
I'll be here.

we'd meet up at night pretty late by the falls. talked too fast without regret with headlights and stars, it was brighter than the daylight.

"'Cheers!' she said, lifting her glass.
'Cheers,' I said, lifting mine.
We clicked glasses, then drank them off
as the ambulance backed out,
turned south, siren on.
It just wasn't our turn yet."

for nobody else, gave me a thrill
with all your faults, i love you still.
it had to be you, wonderful you
it had to be you.

Yeah, don't degrade yourself the way that I do cause you don't depend upon all the shit that I use to make my moods improve.

the last time i saw you, you were standing by his side. the last time you saw me was in a crumpled photograph that missed the bin.

I have no patience for hypocrites,
have no patience for fakes.
I have no patience for those who make my same mistakes.
So, hold me.

I miss the sound of your voice
I miss the rush of your skin
I miss the still of the silence
as you breathe out and I breathe in 


she always said i was too silent, and i never found the words to entertain her, maybe i tried too hard to always be clever while she only stopped for simple words to keep her safe, to keep her safe. maybe, maybe if i can see you now, i'll find a way to sing somehow, something to make you stay so wide awake somehow.

please show me something that can shake my bones.
i want to feel the fear rush through my veins.
my hands are cold from holding on to hopes.

back at the homestead
where the air makes you choke
and people don't know you
and trust is a joke
we don't even have pictures
just memories to hold
that grow sweeter each season
as we slowly grow old

i starting sending you a note
oh how i hope that you're happy
i hear you're somewhere in the sand
and how i wish i was an ocean
maybe then,
i'd get to see you again

you know me, or you think you do
you just don’t seem to see
i’ve been waiting all this time to be
something i can’t define

you meant to make me happy, make me sad.
want to make it better, better so bad.
but save your resolutions for your never new year.
there is only one solution i can see here.

cause if your love is all i had in this life
well that would be enough until the end of time
so rest your weary heart and relax your mind
cause i’m gonna love you girl until the end of time

who doesn't long for,
someone to hold.
who knows how to love you
without being told.

you have my attention
like you've had all the while
since that first day when you made my heart smile
with loving eyes and tired sighs that flow
you have my attention
like a shout through an empty sanctuary
speak but a whisper, i'll hear a sermon

i like the way you like me best. i like the way you're not impressed while you put me to the test.

And when you're holding me
we make a pair of parentheses.
There's plenty space to encase
whatever weird way my mind goes,
I know I’ll be safe in these arms.

This town will never see it coming.
Dressed like that you’d get away with murder
Ditch the car and hit the ground running
This is just a taste of summer

hold on, baby, you're losing it
the water's high, you're jumping into it
and letting go, and no one knows that
you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and you're tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone

Don't ever part your lips
Instead just follow my lead
And focus on the rhythm of my hips
Fingertips say more than I ever could

eventually, whatever it is that was getting us high stops feeling good and starts to hurt. they say if you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. but how do you know when you're there? because no matter how badly something hurts us, sometimes, letting go hurts even more.

you’re so good at making bad decisions, but even better at burning bridges.

Being taken for granted can be a compliment.
It means that you've become a comfortable
trusted element in another person's life.

you're in my arms
and all the world is calm
the music playing on for only two
so close together
and when i'm with you
so close to feeling alive

twisting heartache into fine, little pieces that avoid an awful crime but it's you i can't deny.

you've got to show her you need her
don't treat her like a mind reader
each day do something to need her
to believe you love her

You can't break my heart, it's liquid.
It melted when I met you.

Me and my friends,
We don't encourage discipline
Or really much of anything
We do our drugs to wheel it up
And tell ourselves that this is love
But it's never added up
And it'll never be enough
No it'll never be enough

play me a sad song because that’s what i want to hear, i want you to make me cry. i want to remember the places that we left, lost to the mists of time. i know that you’ll go soon. you’ll find out so take me with you always

Please baby you're scaring me now
I knew I'd end up letting you down.

i spend entire days in this bed too small for two
on these pillows that you can’t get used to
and that’s why i don’t sleep at night
and that’s why i don’t feel right in this city
it’s more me than you

it's what you do, not what you say
that keeps you one step away.
am i that easy to forget?

just because i'm hurting
doesn't mean i'm hurt
doesn't mean i didn't get what i deserve
no better and no worse

maybe you'd sing and put words to all the things
that you think of in a day but have forgotten how to say
nothing lasts forever, not even the mountains,
someday they will be swept away and swallowed by the sea.

breathe in and softly release it, i won't let you go.
i think i know what you won't tell me
i've got this figured out and then you,
you go and change it. you go and change it.

i've reached the point where all i want
is to sleep around in hopes that i will catch back up.
we are parallel lines, we're running in circles
we're never meant to cross.

sometimes i close my eyes
and imagine you with me
chasing passion into the night
all tangled in a dream

don't blink, don't close your eyes.
and most of all don't apologize
it's me who's got the demons to wrestle now
there's a patch of blue in a stormy sky
a memory of a brighter time
when everything was new, and less watered down.
before the summer turned to brown.

i'm tired of singing all the sad songs in my head
but i can't find enough of anything to drown out what you said.

don't be afraid should things happen to change, because change can be a beautiful thing. life is loving and letting go.

i will never love you more than woody allen movies.
i will never love you more than god only knows.
i will never you more than dvd nights with my girlfriend.
where we talk about stupid things like feelings and men.
i will never love you more than my boyfriend when i was fourteen
even if he's now an asshole,
i will never love you more.

right now i am complicated.
right now i am giving this heart away.
how i wish i could just keep turning back time.
right now i'm the walking wounded.
mind set on getting out alive.

instead of beating me up, you should be giving me hope.
instead of bringing me down, you should be lifting me up.
instead of starting a fire, you should be heating things up.
i'd never leave you there, screaming for my love.