I haven't updated in like three months and I am so sorry... ):

i made a wish on a million of the stars,
registered your name on a few.
that way, if you ever forget who you are,
you can look up and see a picture of you.

you're built from distraction
so brilliantly dull

and we can laugh all we want,
know it's your favorite.
and i'll stare at you all i can,
cause you...you're my favorite.

and when you find everthing you looked for,
i hope your life leads you back to my door,
ohh but if it don't,
stay beautiful.

i remember the first time we danced
i remember tunneling through the snow like ants
what i don't recall is why i said
i simply can't sleep in this tiny bed with you, anymore

"This is love, isn't it? When you notice someone's absence and hate that absence more than anything? More, even, than you love his presence?"

i hope you remember me when you’re homesick and need a change. i miss your purple hair, i miss the way you taste. i know you’ll come back someday, on a bed of nails i wait. i’m praying that you don’t burn out or fade away.

Do you remember our first subway ride?
Our last swim on the east coast?
I remember your warm smile in the sun,
The daydreaming boy without a shirt on.

Empty hallways, you can't get to me. Open doorways, but you're still searching for your keys. And I can't open the ears for which I sing. So I'll just pass along, and baby, you'll start to hear me.

You insist on explaining the obvious when it's pointless. And I'm heartless for saying what's really on our minds. Your words go to rhythm, while mine go to rhyme. You were never good with syllables and half heartfelt lines.

This is when you start to shake. This is when you start to stutter. This is when you say I love you. This is when you swear it was only for each other.

all the stars up in the sky, and the leaves in the trees, all the broken bits that make you jump up, and grassy bits in between, all the matter in the world is how much i like you

I cannot refuse your eyes
Please don't look at me tonight
My heart beats fast, I know you're there
I pretend like I don't care

Cause if you jump I will jump too. We will fall together from the building's ledge, never looking back at what we've done. We'll say it was love cause I would die for you.

We're friends, real friends.
And that means no matter how long it takes, when you finally do decide to look back,
I'll be here.

we'd meet up at night pretty late by the falls. talked too fast without regret with headlights and stars, it was brighter than the daylight.

"'Cheers!' she said, lifting her glass.
'Cheers,' I said, lifting mine.
We clicked glasses, then drank them off
as the ambulance backed out,
turned south, siren on.
It just wasn't our turn yet."

for nobody else, gave me a thrill
with all your faults, i love you still.
it had to be you, wonderful you
it had to be you.

Yeah, don't degrade yourself the way that I do cause you don't depend upon all the shit that I use to make my moods improve.

the last time i saw you, you were standing by his side. the last time you saw me was in a crumpled photograph that missed the bin.

I have no patience for hypocrites,
have no patience for fakes.
I have no patience for those who make my same mistakes.
So, hold me.

I miss the sound of your voice
I miss the rush of your skin
I miss the still of the silence
as you breathe out and I breathe in 


she always said i was too silent, and i never found the words to entertain her, maybe i tried too hard to always be clever while she only stopped for simple words to keep her safe, to keep her safe. maybe, maybe if i can see you now, i'll find a way to sing somehow, something to make you stay so wide awake somehow.

please show me something that can shake my bones.
i want to feel the fear rush through my veins.
my hands are cold from holding on to hopes.

back at the homestead
where the air makes you choke
and people don't know you
and trust is a joke
we don't even have pictures
just memories to hold
that grow sweeter each season
as we slowly grow old

i starting sending you a note
oh how i hope that you're happy
i hear you're somewhere in the sand
and how i wish i was an ocean
maybe then,
i'd get to see you again

you know me, or you think you do
you just don’t seem to see
i’ve been waiting all this time to be
something i can’t define

you meant to make me happy, make me sad.
want to make it better, better so bad.
but save your resolutions for your never new year.
there is only one solution i can see here.

cause if your love is all i had in this life
well that would be enough until the end of time
so rest your weary heart and relax your mind
cause i’m gonna love you girl until the end of time

who doesn't long for,
someone to hold.
who knows how to love you
without being told.

you have my attention
like you've had all the while
since that first day when you made my heart smile
with loving eyes and tired sighs that flow
you have my attention
like a shout through an empty sanctuary
speak but a whisper, i'll hear a sermon

i like the way you like me best. i like the way you're not impressed while you put me to the test.

And when you're holding me
we make a pair of parentheses.
There's plenty space to encase
whatever weird way my mind goes,
I know I’ll be safe in these arms.

This town will never see it coming.
Dressed like that you’d get away with murder
Ditch the car and hit the ground running
This is just a taste of summer

hold on, baby, you're losing it
the water's high, you're jumping into it
and letting go, and no one knows that
you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and you're tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone

Don't ever part your lips
Instead just follow my lead
And focus on the rhythm of my hips
Fingertips say more than I ever could

eventually, whatever it is that was getting us high stops feeling good and starts to hurt. they say if you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. but how do you know when you're there? because no matter how badly something hurts us, sometimes, letting go hurts even more.

you’re so good at making bad decisions, but even better at burning bridges.

Being taken for granted can be a compliment.
It means that you've become a comfortable
trusted element in another person's life.

you're in my arms
and all the world is calm
the music playing on for only two
so close together
and when i'm with you
so close to feeling alive

twisting heartache into fine, little pieces that avoid an awful crime but it's you i can't deny.

you've got to show her you need her
don't treat her like a mind reader
each day do something to need her
to believe you love her

You can't break my heart, it's liquid.
It melted when I met you.

Me and my friends,
We don't encourage discipline
Or really much of anything
We do our drugs to wheel it up
And tell ourselves that this is love
But it's never added up
And it'll never be enough
No it'll never be enough

play me a sad song because that’s what i want to hear, i want you to make me cry. i want to remember the places that we left, lost to the mists of time. i know that you’ll go soon. you’ll find out so take me with you always

Please baby you're scaring me now
I knew I'd end up letting you down.

i spend entire days in this bed too small for two
on these pillows that you can’t get used to
and that’s why i don’t sleep at night
and that’s why i don’t feel right in this city
it’s more me than you

it's what you do, not what you say
that keeps you one step away.
am i that easy to forget?

just because i'm hurting
doesn't mean i'm hurt
doesn't mean i didn't get what i deserve
no better and no worse

maybe you'd sing and put words to all the things
that you think of in a day but have forgotten how to say
nothing lasts forever, not even the mountains,
someday they will be swept away and swallowed by the sea.

breathe in and softly release it, i won't let you go.
i think i know what you won't tell me
i've got this figured out and then you,
you go and change it. you go and change it.

i've reached the point where all i want
is to sleep around in hopes that i will catch back up.
we are parallel lines, we're running in circles
we're never meant to cross.

sometimes i close my eyes
and imagine you with me
chasing passion into the night
all tangled in a dream

don't blink, don't close your eyes.
and most of all don't apologize
it's me who's got the demons to wrestle now
there's a patch of blue in a stormy sky
a memory of a brighter time
when everything was new, and less watered down.
before the summer turned to brown.

i'm tired of singing all the sad songs in my head
but i can't find enough of anything to drown out what you said.

don't be afraid should things happen to change, because change can be a beautiful thing. life is loving and letting go.

i will never love you more than woody allen movies.
i will never love you more than god only knows.
i will never you more than dvd nights with my girlfriend.
where we talk about stupid things like feelings and men.
i will never love you more than my boyfriend when i was fourteen
even if he's now an asshole,
i will never love you more.

right now i am complicated.
right now i am giving this heart away.
how i wish i could just keep turning back time.
right now i'm the walking wounded.
mind set on getting out alive.

instead of beating me up, you should be giving me hope.
instead of bringing me down, you should be lifting me up.
instead of starting a fire, you should be heating things up.
i'd never leave you there, screaming for my love.

Ah update time! This update's probably not as long as usuall and I made all the quotes not like.. Spaced out because I like the way legnthly paragraphs and shit look with this layout.. I'm silly. I probably won't do that any more though because it takes way too much effort, haha.. But yeah. (:

Your face it dances and it haunts me. Your laughter's still ringing in my ears. I still find pieces of your presence here, even after all these years.

From her lips I heard her say, "Can I have you?"  Caught up on what to say, I said, "you do"

Been alone since you were twenty-one, you haven't laughed since January. You try and make like this is so much fun, but we know it to be quite contrary.

If you were here you'd realize what you did stay for a million years, I’d make you cry my tears. But you're not here and I’m not strong, and this old thing's gone on too long. I need to leave this on my shelf, but instead I say it to myself.

But you are what you love, and not what loves you back. I’m in love with illusion so saw me in half. I’m in love with tricks so pull another rabbit out your hat.

I just keep waiting for something to happen. Waiting for somebody to come walking in, somebody as perfect as you were, so I can try it again. But chances are so hard to come by and the second one is impossible to find.

I wake up in tear drops, they fall down like rain. I put on that old song we danced to and then I head off to my job, guess not much has changed.

Before you come back next, I will prepare the rifle, and we will hunt for those with no dreams

It’s a march to extinction, with your god in step. It’s his name on your mouth; it’s his cross on your neck. It’s a farm boy sprinting over desert dirt; & he’s panting the “Our Father” in staccato spurts. It’s his automatic rifle and it tells no lies, that there’s truth in your stomach there’s no alibi. But the trouble lies on the other side, with an equal truth prepping for his holy night. See the crescent and the star blinking in the virgin sky, here’s the call of milk and honey from the afterlife. As he eases to the checkpoint he is calm and sure, that collateral damage is the cost of war. It’s another bag of bones for the gods to sort.

I want to run but only far enough to make you miss me. I want to take back all the shit that I have done but I guess you were better off without me.

I think I’ll go out and embarrass myself by getting drunk and falling down in the street. You say I choose sadness, that it never once has chosen me. Maybe you're right.

I’ll teach you how to swim if you turn the bad in me to good again.

Everything I love gets lost in drawers.

And once you lose yourself, you have two choices. Find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely.

You can't navigate me. I might do mean things and I might hurt you and I might run away without your permission and you might hate me forever, and I know that that scares the shit out of you, because I’m the only real thing that you have.

I would spend a lifetime trying to figure out how to make my heart stop beating. I would spend a lifetime trying to figure out how to make myself stop breathing.

For a second there I thought you disappeared. It rains a lot this time of year. And we both go together if one falls down. I talk out loud like you're still around.

"There's a big difference, I discovered, between wanting to die and not wanting to live"

I hate how after a fight, it takes so long to go back to how things used to be, and how sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you'll never go back to how it used to be.

Alone in the city and she's only seventeen. The boy left her black and blue in the street so mean. Just twelve weeks along and she's got a life inside, says she's never, ever felt so alone.

Well maybe you should just drink a lot less coffee and never ever watch the ten o'clock news, and maybe you should kiss someone nice.

"People like me don't have best friends. You can't trust me, and I won't let you. I won't get close to you because I’m afraid of losing you. I’ll protect you from me and protect me from myself by avoiding confrontation, which will lead us to a falling out, inevitably. I will keep secrets from you and tell your secrets to people you hate in order to push you away. I’ll do anything to keep myself from getting attached to you because I’ve been there before and I don't want to go back to being dependent on anyone."

What value would there be in life if we are not together?

We make believe every day, we make our lives seem like they're still worth living, when we find out in the end it's only us that we've been kidding.

I marveled at how fast old loyalties, ones that took years to build, could be ripped apart and replaced. I knew I had lost him, but I felt desperate to recruit a small piece of his heart back to me. Make him feel a sliver of what he used to feel for me.

And I recall how you sat on the same side of me, it really seems that you'll always be on my side. You’re my best side.

I left you waiting, at the least could we be friends? Should have never started.. Ain't that the way it always ends?

It’s been a few years and I miss you still. I got your picture on the window sill. Been thinking of ways, I got days to fill. Don’t think I ever will. Hold on to things you can't explain. Hold on to dancing in the rain. Hold on to kisses on the lips. Savor every sweet moment, 'cause baby this is it. So hold on, hold on. I’ve been cleaning up this mess, found an old metal box with some black and white photographs. A little faded but baby you still sure do look good in that old dress. Didn’t we wish we were superstars? Sign our names in the dust on your family car. We’d be waving to the crowd, you be the diva, and I’ll play guitar. Hold on to things you want to be. Hold on to friends and family. Hold on to burning the summer sun, it makes a difference everyone. Hold on, hold on.

Don’t carry the world upon your shoulders. Well, don't you know that it’s a fool who plays it cool by making his world a little colder?

I’ll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about. And she's got everything that I have to live without.

I realize you love yourself more than you could ever love me.

And if you ask me if I love him, I’d lie.

I know you'd rather see me gone than to see me the way that I am but I am in the life anyway

Well, can't you just leave me alone? You’ve already thrown all the sticks and stones you had to send my way. Well, can't you just leave it at that and spare us both the bother? Because I just bounce back anyway.

I waited for a bus to separate the both of us, and take me off, far away from you 'cause my feelings never change a bit. I always feel like shit. I don't know why. I guess that I just do. You once talked to me about love, and you painted pictures of a never never land and I could have gone to that place.

Let’s turn the record over. Your life's a pleasant valley. Moonlight drives. A garden in the sun. Your shadow stays behind me, graceful as a dancer in a ballet.

When there is nothing left to burn you have to set yourself on fire

I know it's late, I need you to open my chest, my chest. Fix whatever you need to be fixed. So long as I can hold you, breathe in rhythm with you. It’s all that I’ve waited for.

And it’s not a party, if it happens every night. I’m running on empty, you're running out of luck. So let’s ditch this city, before we sober up.

We can't talk like we used to,  there's just some things we can't say.

Eviscerated the love I thought we had. I won't make it back. These words are stronger than the promise you forgot we had.

I’m starting with the man in mirror, I’m asking him to change his ways. No message could've been any clearer, if you want to make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make the change.

UPDATE! Finallly! (:

i work backwards from nowhere
don't opposites attract?
i've got no friends and blank stares
that could make my heart attack

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them then they're right, you believe less so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

she knew the well was far too deep
for him to wet his lips
but something told her that he spoke
of so much more than all of this

they can take, take, take the kids from the summer
but they'll never, never, never take the summer from me.

we're supposed to love everyone
but things start to get confused
when it comes to the human mind
and people start dropping bombs
like 'today is too late' or 'farewell old friend'
and god damn i just want to feel a little safe

"You see, . . . you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too — even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling"

august, august of last year
before the leaves disappeared
you told me you were not the one.
in august, something in your eyes
or was it that july?
told me not to take it to heart

you are new and near now to someone you used to love
when you were young; when all was gold and you two touched
and felt the flutter underneath your skin. you stood in glowing
rooms, the light dripping from both of you.
and nothing since has felt as radiant or real.

Let's go, I just wanna let you know,
This situation leaves me outta breath
We'll drive till the love that's in your eyes,
Drops to the ground,unravels like a thread
I know that you really wanna go,
I only think about her, must get to her, cannot lose her.
You know that I will not let this die

And if yesterday night you would have cared to come, I still would have felt alone. Though you would have been lying next to me, I still would have felt alone.

And God it hurts me to think of you for the light in your eyes was gone
sometimes I don't know why this old world can't leave well enough alone

how long can i count to a thousand?
i tried drinking but the bottle is still empty, i can only hope for a fresh one
you tried loving but i guess you could not love me
how long can you count to a thousand?

She says baby
"It's 3 am I must be lonely"
When she says baby
"Well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes."

I hate to break it to you but if apathy defines my generation, yours is defined by disappointing us to where we don't even see the point anymore. The best minds of your generation gave up a long time ago

I mean, I spent years and years and years convincing myself that these puzzle pieces added up to a flower, and it wasn't at all. And once I woke up, I realized: 'How do I trust other pieces? How do I take new pieces and put them together with this much, you know, vigor that I once did, because, what if they're not a flower either?

you pull back your curtains
and the sun burns into your eyes.
you watch a plane flying across a clear blue sky.
this is the day your life will surely change.
this is the day when things fall into place.

and when we got there, this is what she said to me:
"love and war, in heaven and in hell.
you get what you deserve. you'd better spend it well.
all is fair in love and war and love,
a civil war like this, it always sells itself."

I never thought that love could come true.
Driving 'round the city in your car,
Down low in the seat,
Coming home and getting into bed,
Smiling in your sleep.
I'll never love no one the way I loved you.
You've never loved no one, have you?

to walk within the lines, would make my life so boring. i want to know that i have been to the extreme. so knock me off my feet. c'mon now give it too me. anything to make me feel alive.

When I'm with anybody else it's
so hard to be myself.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,
proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.
I saved the rest for you.

I'll find your hand and trace it with mine.
As we push away with everything we have...
With everything we have left.

so leave me alone again and take me for
granted, take every little piece you can
get your hands on, get a hold on.

It is not true, what they say about writing being the next best thing to being there. For days I stared at that postcard and touched it in all the places I imagined you had, when you wrote the address and affited the stamp and what have you, but never once did I feel like I'd found you again.

How could you believe in someone sorry sad like me
I know the deal and I thank you anyways
And if you leave, you know I'm crawlin' at your feet
You never get weak when I'm leaning hard on you
And I guess that's just the way you are.

The door slams I wake up
Another illusion I have made of this
I cry, I swept away every tear that I've cried
And I swear this was your choice
So save me from falling with the sound of your voice.

sometimes, people are like god, and they really don't exist. unless you aim for my heart, you will always miss.

if you don't know, honey
why don't you just say so
'cause i need this now,
more than i ever did
if you don't,
well, honey, then you don't

wouldn't trade anything
you're still my everything

this place feels so unfamiliar,
yet i know it well.
i think i used to belong here,
but the only way i can tell
is that i miss you still
and i cannot find you here.

i love how your eyes close
whenever you kiss me
and when i'm away from you
i love how you miss me
i love the way your kiss is always heavenly
but darling, most of all
i love how you love me

I cannot find the heart I gave to you.
Sometimes what we think we really want we don't.
Sometimes what we think we want we really don't.
Sometimes what we think we love we don't.

And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down.
Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out.
It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room,
when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds.

i talked so much, i'm sure
i didn't realize i'd gone crazy.
didn't catch my bloody nose
or that my heart tried to explode.
i still live with my high school friends,
some people never change at all.
we're still the same compulsive drunks
we were when we were small.
someone get this man to a hospital

if i find my way through the darkest of days,
will i laugh about the things that kept me awake?
if my greatest fear paints itself so crystal clear,
will i run away or will i hide?

she said, 'if we're gonna make this work,
you gotta let me inside even though it hurts.
don't hide the broken parts that i need to see.'
she said, 'like it or not it's the way it's gotta be,
you gotta love yourself if you can ever love me.'

i've never wanted you so much as i do right now.
i can't believe this is happening to me.

can someone please just shake the lies out of me?
it seems that every word i say don't mean a thing.

i'll make sure everything is alright.
sit tight. don't you say a word.
see the earth turn. take a breath,
and stare like you have
never, ever seen the world.

she said "i'm so much better"
blue font and big bold letters.
and i would be lying if i said i didn't care.

You do not know how much this hurts me
To say these things that I don't want to say
But have to say them anyway
I would do anything to end your suffering
But you would rather walk away

just give me a scene where the music is free
and the beer isn't the life of the party.

And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all

if asked what I thought I knew, you know I'd say
just love and be loved in return
i stole that but it's okay, it's true

You can write my place
Out of the life you make
And all the things that mattered
When you knew my face
Cross off all the ways I failed you
Cause I failed you
But I'm still in your blood
You're still in my blood

Because as we all know, that's what really matters. In a scene where the music has taken a backseat to the haircuts, you win and I lose.

breakfast of two valium and the rest of them rattling in your pocket, walking down the street to your work. won't answer the door without looking out the bedroom window first.

a stronger girl would shake this off in flight,
and never give it more than a frowning hour.
but you have let your heart decide.
loss has conquered you.

you need to know your friends
you need to know that
i'll be wavin my hand
watching you drown
watching you scream
quiet or loud

And forever isn't long enough
To get over giving so much up
To someone who will throw it all away
And a smile can only hide so much
And I choose death over your touch
I fell head over heels into my grave

today, dressed up in designer drugs
dedicated to the one i'll always love,
the one who really messed me up.

don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

Your holiness is gone
Sometimes love will make you sad
Until you know where you belong
You'll dream of what you never had

In my dreams we fly away from all the pain and school bell rings to a city that never sleeps and I can see you smile all day. And I can show you just how beautiful complications can be. From the roof top I can lean in close and whisper in your ear, "Can you see? It's not the same. The stars are spelling out your name. And the moon can only frown because it will never be as beautiful as you"

i'm not leaving this place
unless i'm leaving with you
'cause you're the only person
with a half-decent heart
and i know you'll put it to use.

i don't care if you leave or stay, but you
might as well split - because it's not the
same as it was when we said our last
goodbye. and if you want the truth:
i was hoping one of us would pass away
cause it'd be much easier then, we would
all get together and think about when
we were young, we were dumb,
we were numb but in love.

When I passed you in the doorway, you took me with a glance
I should have took that last bus home but I ask you for a dance

you were everything that's bad for me
make no apologies
i'm crushed, black and blue
but you know i'd do it all again for you

And in the morning I'm leaving, making my way back to Cleveland
So tonight I hope that I will do just fine
And I don't see how you could ever be anything but mine

God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?

I don't know, is it me? am I imagining?
tell me, don't you feel anything,
when you're here lying beside me?
and now you're telling me
that it's late and you just gotta go
why is it that you only wanna leave
at the point that you think
that you might be falling in love

i feel like i've been losing you
each night it ends too soon.
you dont hold me like you used to,
& your eyes look like they've
seen too much. cause its always
some excuse, too tired too obtuse.
you look so far removed.

under one umbrella
just talking and joking
and i knew that i'd love you
for as long as you'd let me
and i haven't caught my breath
since the moment that we met

You make me wanna be somebody else
you make me wanna smoke a cigarette

if you are chilly, here, take my sweater.
your head is aching, i'll make it better.
cause i love the way you call me baby,
and you take me the way i am.

"why are you so far away?" she said. "why won't you ever know that i'm in love with you?"

is there a remedy for waiting for love's victorious return? is there a remedy for hating every second that i'm without you?

tonight my lungs are hanging
from a telephone wire,
choking on the broken
digits of a dial tone.

it's so hard to see when
your eyes are rolling in the back of your head
it's even harder to speak when
everything you say just comes out wrong.

I wanna be the wind that fills your sails
Be the hand that lifts your viel
Be the moon that moves your tides
The sun coming up in your eyes
Be the wheel that never rusts
Be the spark that lights you up
All you've been dreaming of
And more, so much more
I wanna be your everything

and when twilight turned darkness.
i was unsure of where to go.
the salt burns my skin,
and your eyes were cold as the ocean.

she's beautiful in her simple little way
she don't have too much to say when she gets mad
she understands she don't let go of anything
even when the pain gets too bad
guess i should've been more like that

this month i died a little every day
but i'll smile, just for you
so you don't have to see me this way

gave her a fraction of all i had to give
i guess i hold a grudge cause you still got my rib
with your beautiful eyes, unscrupulous lies
now watch the circus clown run around in circles and try
seems like all i get to meet is hope
girl, if we got along better, we'd be dope

she says that she still wants a friendship
she can't live her life without me as a friend
i can't figure out why i give a damn to what she wants
i don't understand the now before the then

 I chased after sugary spoonfuls,
shot them down with bottles of rocket fuel.
I got the idea there wasn't a thing I couldn't do.
I got the idea that that I could stay ahead of wolves.

when you're staring at the ground
wishing that you didn't know
what i'm really thinking
you wont even look at me now
say you'll never leave
please

I swear to you, on everything I am,
And I dedicate to you all that I have,
And I promise you that I'll stand right by your side
Forever and always until the day I die.

"but, in a way, we're just closer being friends."
"you are? good. you are."
"we are, and if not, there's always the boomerangs."
"the boomerangs?
"yeah. you know the kind. you throw them out there into the world and they always come back to you."
"yeah, that's right."
"he bought us each one, and we promised never to throw them away. so no matter what happened, if we needed to, or wanted to, then we could still end up together."

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

the signal is subtle. we pass just close enough to touch.
no questions, no answers.
we know by now to say enough,
with only simple words. with only subtle terms.
the things we feel alone for one another.

I tried to tell you before I left
but I was screaming under my breath
you are the only thing that makes sense
just ignore all this present tense

we've seen the sunrise with new eyes,
we've seen the damage of gossip & true lies,
we've seen the sun go down.
had passionate makeouts & passionate freakouts,
we built this world on our own.
it was in the back of a taxi when
you told me you loved me & that i wasn't alone.

And in the absence of a lover, I find myself fishing in a harbor with my voice as bait. In a dingy with a hole and a busted engine so it looks like I'm sinking to the bottom of the sea. Yeah, I hear there's plenty of fish in the ocean, but let me tell you, it means nothing when you don't know how to swim.

maybe in five or ten, 'yours and mine' will meet again.
straighten this whole thing out.
maybe then honesty need not be
feared as a friend or an enemy.
but this is the distance and this is my gameface.

so you're taking these pills to fill up your soul.
and you're drinking them down with cheap alcohol
and i'd be inclined to be yours for the taking.
and be part of this terrible mess that you're making.

i left you in the morning still drunk on melodrama.
you're so pretty, so natural but i had to salvage honor.



this boy i know, he has a heart of glass.
it is gold inside but it has crystalized.
it is beautiful but in it's tragedy.
it is hard to hold without shattering.

walkin' to the south out of roanoke, i caught a trucker out of philly, had a nice long toke. but he's a headed west from the cumberland gap, to johnson city, tennessee. now i gotta get a move on before the sun. i hear my baby calling my name, and i know that she's the only one. and if i die in raleigh, at least i will die free.

if i could open my mouth wide enough for a
marching band to march out,
they would make your name sing.
and bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings.

he calls so late tonight, it is 4 a.m.
he is drunk, he can't find his apartment.
i don't like how it feels when i think of him.
all hooded in black, lost and stumbling.

your eyes are brighter than the sun.
they make me see that you're the one.
your smile takes my breath away
and leaves me with nothing to say.

"what's worse, not getting everything you wished for
or getting it and finding out it's not enough?"

It was more work than it seemed, looking through a telescope, as the Earth was continually moving and you had to move along with it. You don’t realize how fast this actually happens, and it’s kind of both creepy and wonderful when you stop to think about it. And it makes you realize there is absolutely no way to avoid change. You can sit there and cross your arms and refuse it, but underneath you, things are still spinning away.

Well maybe I'm just scared, scared to let you go
I want you to know, right from hello
your love just kept me wondering
Well maybe I'm just tired, tired of never knowing
I know I'm not good enough for you

It's never, ever been better than this. I hung my shirt on the floorboard, wrinkled up from pulling, pushing, and tasting.

once again your eyes make it hard to ask you why
so i sit here knuckles tight. hands against the wheel
your head against the glass and you mean so much to me

i put one hand on your round ripe heart
and the other down your panties
everything is falling, dear.
everything is wrong.
it''s just history repeating itself.
and babe, you turn me on.

this happiness surpasses me,
just running up and down my spine.
whenever i'm around you,
my smile beings to shine.
the love i feel for you
is quite hard for anyone to find.
you're the one that I want to wake up next to.

we're one mistake from being together.
but let's not ask why it's not right.



she gets what she wants
and she breaks what she gets
get out while you can
or she'll tear you to pieces

And so should I and every other girl who is tired of playing their game by their rules. "Don't be too fat, or too thin, or too dark, or too light; don't be too sexual, or too chaste, or too smart, or too dumb." Be yourself. But make sure you fit in.

you just wanted a solution
you just wanted to be missed

and it is true what you said,
that i live like a hermit in my own head.
but when the sun shines again
i'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.